Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Just like the roaring thunder my heart cries for you
Just like a silent whisper, my heart longs for you
It may sound absurd and weird but that’s what I feel
You didn’t only hurt me once, you hurt me like twins
With a teardrop I cry thinking about my fears
Fear to be hurt, fear to be alone
Although I’m strong I become weak with you
Although I know how to fight, I’m willing to lose for you
I want to get over you, I want to forget you
I want to move on but how could I?
You are always around; you are always making me hold on to a wrong love
I wanna let go but each time I try to pull my hand away, you pull it back even harder
Your hold gets tighter every time I wanna pull it loose
I just wonder why you keep on doing this
You made a fool of me, you hurt me, you made me cry and yet you don’t want to let go of me
You stab my heart each time you’re with her but you don’t wanna see me with other guys
You’re being so unfair yet I tolerate your doings
I keep on thinking why am I doing all these sacrifices
Well maybe this is the only answer: I LOVE YOU
I love you although you hurt me
I love you although you made me cry
I love you although you make me feel stupid
I love because I just do and that won’t change even if I want to
My heart is closed with you inside
It’s hard to open it for others to fill
You locked it tight and you held the key
That’s why I feel like I’m lost with you all the time
I don’t know where this will bring us
I don’t know what will happen next
All I know is you’re in my heart
My thought runs with you
And all that I know is that until you won’t give me back the key to re-open my heart
I will always love you until my day ends
Just like a silent whisper, my heart longs for you
It may sound absurd and weird but that’s what I feel
You didn’t only hurt me once, you hurt me like twins
With a teardrop I cry thinking about my fears
Fear to be hurt, fear to be alone
Although I’m strong I become weak with you
Although I know how to fight, I’m willing to lose for you
I want to get over you, I want to forget you
I want to move on but how could I?
You are always around; you are always making me hold on to a wrong love
I wanna let go but each time I try to pull my hand away, you pull it back even harder
Your hold gets tighter every time I wanna pull it loose
I just wonder why you keep on doing this
You made a fool of me, you hurt me, you made me cry and yet you don’t want to let go of me
You stab my heart each time you’re with her but you don’t wanna see me with other guys
You’re being so unfair yet I tolerate your doings
I keep on thinking why am I doing all these sacrifices
Well maybe this is the only answer: I LOVE YOU
I love you although you hurt me
I love you although you made me cry
I love you although you make me feel stupid
I love because I just do and that won’t change even if I want to
My heart is closed with you inside
It’s hard to open it for others to fill
You locked it tight and you held the key
That’s why I feel like I’m lost with you all the time
I don’t know where this will bring us
I don’t know what will happen next
All I know is you’re in my heart
My thought runs with you
And all that I know is that until you won’t give me back the key to re-open my heart
I will always love you until my day ends
Friday, August 19, 2005
I already thought you are the one…yeah, you made me feel YOU ARE!...you always stay by my side, you always make me feel special…you see no other girls but me…I never thought that I would fall for you that hard…who will?...though we’re the best of friends, we hated each other in many ways…you love to annoy me and guess what?...i loved to be annoyed by you…that’s what I mean of how we hated each other so much…honestly I’ve had loads more sacrifices than you are…hmmm…let’s say you have, too…you stay late at night just to call me on the phone and talk to me (hey, am I not staying late as well?...) you cancel all your appointments after class just to be with me (hmmm so I can treat you?) , you go to school even if you don’t want to just because I wanted you (but you can still benefit from it, ayt?)…damn!...why am soooooo stupid to just realize it now?...you’ve been sacrificing a lot not knowing that my sacrifices are 3 times more than yours!...and to think you were the one who likes me back then…
Okay, let’s skip those icky mushy stuff…why did I fall for you?...you wanna know?...well it’s because you made me do and I hated you for that!...I was in the midst of my happy life being your best friend then with just a snap of a finger, I fell for you wishing that you’ll catch me but you didn’t!...let’s say you did “partially”…nothing happened though…we’re still the best of friends…you still show me the same YOU that I’ve known before and I’m showing you the same ME you’ve seen before but now, my heart skips more than a beat whenever you do special things for me…but why do you do those things?...was it because you’re my best friend or you love me too?...you never told me you do but you always show me…hmmm…action speaks louder than words, I think…despite all those annoying things that you keep on doing, I don’t know, I’ve kept on loving you for that...hei, can you remember that promise that we made for each other?...well, if you’ve forgotten it, well, let me just remind you a bit…it’s not much of a great thing but it’s one reason why my life changed a lot!...we promised not to leave each other no matter what…we love each other but as the song goes, “we had the right love at the wrong time”…what wrong time?...for you it’s a wrong time but it’s the perfect time for me…okay girl, just keep quiet and keep on loving him he’ll notice soon…
Notice soon?...that soon came and went without a trace of difference in our relationship until one day I found out something dreadful!...you’ve got a new girl!...man, my heart was crushed!...all the things you did for me seem to flash before my eyes…all the things you told me, the promises…promises?...yeah!...your promise…you f****n forgot about our promise!...I never left you, but you did!...damn it was a disaster…but then you told me there’s nothing to worry about because there’s nothing between you and her…oohhhhhhhhh that was such a relief…at least you told me honestly about the two of you…at least you realized that each passing second is very crucial for me for I do not have any strength to approach you and ask you about it. We remained as we are and I kept on loving you wishing that somehow that thought will cross your mind.
Well guess what, moron!...that girl’s got friends who cannot quite keep a secret…know what I found out?...I found out the truth between you and her…the truth that broke my heart into a million pieces that I didn’t know if even God can mend it…I got stuck between doubt and trust…of course I trust you…I trust you enough to believe your stupid lies!...I doubted you 10% but I did trust you 90%...if you only knew how painful it is to have felt this way, maybe you will never dare touch my heart and crush it…but guess what?...I’ll stay as cool as I am and I will never let you know that I’ve been hurt…why should I?...you didn’t even bother to think of me when you hurt me…don’t worry, I’ll get over you soon…
I thought I was…damn!...I wasn’t planning to see you and talk to you but why the hell does destiny force us to meet?...and you know what?...everything bad I said about you seem to float away when I saw you smile at me and when I said hello, I realized I wasn’t really that over you…you still make my heart race, you still make my knees weak…you still make me feel stupid telling myself that just a smile and I am willing to forget everything…
GUESS THIS ISN’T GOODBYE, YET…
GUESS I STILL LOVE YOU FROM THE START…:’c
Okay, let’s skip those icky mushy stuff…why did I fall for you?...you wanna know?...well it’s because you made me do and I hated you for that!...I was in the midst of my happy life being your best friend then with just a snap of a finger, I fell for you wishing that you’ll catch me but you didn’t!...let’s say you did “partially”…nothing happened though…we’re still the best of friends…you still show me the same YOU that I’ve known before and I’m showing you the same ME you’ve seen before but now, my heart skips more than a beat whenever you do special things for me…but why do you do those things?...was it because you’re my best friend or you love me too?...you never told me you do but you always show me…hmmm…action speaks louder than words, I think…despite all those annoying things that you keep on doing, I don’t know, I’ve kept on loving you for that...hei, can you remember that promise that we made for each other?...well, if you’ve forgotten it, well, let me just remind you a bit…it’s not much of a great thing but it’s one reason why my life changed a lot!...we promised not to leave each other no matter what…we love each other but as the song goes, “we had the right love at the wrong time”…what wrong time?...for you it’s a wrong time but it’s the perfect time for me…okay girl, just keep quiet and keep on loving him he’ll notice soon…
Notice soon?...that soon came and went without a trace of difference in our relationship until one day I found out something dreadful!...you’ve got a new girl!...man, my heart was crushed!...all the things you did for me seem to flash before my eyes…all the things you told me, the promises…promises?...yeah!...your promise…you f****n forgot about our promise!...I never left you, but you did!...damn it was a disaster…but then you told me there’s nothing to worry about because there’s nothing between you and her…oohhhhhhhhh that was such a relief…at least you told me honestly about the two of you…at least you realized that each passing second is very crucial for me for I do not have any strength to approach you and ask you about it. We remained as we are and I kept on loving you wishing that somehow that thought will cross your mind.
Well guess what, moron!...that girl’s got friends who cannot quite keep a secret…know what I found out?...I found out the truth between you and her…the truth that broke my heart into a million pieces that I didn’t know if even God can mend it…I got stuck between doubt and trust…of course I trust you…I trust you enough to believe your stupid lies!...I doubted you 10% but I did trust you 90%...if you only knew how painful it is to have felt this way, maybe you will never dare touch my heart and crush it…but guess what?...I’ll stay as cool as I am and I will never let you know that I’ve been hurt…why should I?...you didn’t even bother to think of me when you hurt me…don’t worry, I’ll get over you soon…
I thought I was…damn!...I wasn’t planning to see you and talk to you but why the hell does destiny force us to meet?...and you know what?...everything bad I said about you seem to float away when I saw you smile at me and when I said hello, I realized I wasn’t really that over you…you still make my heart race, you still make my knees weak…you still make me feel stupid telling myself that just a smile and I am willing to forget everything…
GUESS THIS ISN’T GOODBYE, YET…
GUESS I STILL LOVE YOU FROM THE START…:’c
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