Monday, November 28, 2005
nurses and nursing students out there, you definitely have to see this movie...this will somehow test your faith between religion and science...got me?...
this is a story about a girl named emily rose who was believed to have epileptic psychotic disorder after experiencing bizarre things in her school dormitory...as a college freshman, she was quite keen about things that happened to her...she then started seeing things, demonic things to be exact...she started seeing people as demons and then she also started to have frequent seizures after having those illusions...
doctors explained that emily was schizophrenic...she was having visual hallucinations and illusions followed by extreme epileptic episodes...
but her family as well as emily thought otherwise...being very religious, they all believed that emily was being possessed by a demon...so then, they called on father moore to check on emily and exorcise her as well...father moore suggested that emily should stop taking her anti-psychotic medications as this would alter her health and make the demonic possessions stronger...they abided, emily giving her full trust to father moore...
nothing happened, though...then emily got into a decision of stopping her medications and the exorcism because according to her, she already accepted her fate of letting the people know that demons really exist...later on, she became weak not to mention she often hurt herself...then she died...
the rose family of course didn't complain after witnessing all the effort of father moore to exorcise the demon out of emily...but the state decided to file a case against father moore...the case was negligence homicide...they believed that emily wasn't possessed but she was really psychotic and epileptic...
science can prove a lot of things...especially her hallucinations/illusions and seizures...during the trial, father moore played a recorded exorcism for the court to hear...in this tape, emily often scream and speak aramaic(ancient language apart from hebrew and latin)
i reckon it's really hard to say which to believe...being a catholic myself, i have reasons to say that i do think emily was really possessed...but on the other hand, being able to grow up in a medical world (i'm a nursing student), many facts proved that emily was just psychotic and sometimes having mood swings...
i'm not saying that i'm actually slipping off from catholicism...my friends even say that i'm near into being an atheist baing the only one who agreed with the atheist's arguement about having no God...well, i was just sticking to the facts because honestly, we can always doubt our beliefs, can't we?...
but according to father moore's lawyer, facts leave no room for possibilities and honestly, facts are more believable that those possibilities that are hard to prove...
Saturday, November 26, 2005
This is the 6th book of the accounts of Harry Potter’s adventure in Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry…Havoc and chaos overcame the Wizarding World but then, Harry still went back to Hogwarts for his 6th year with Ron Weasley, Hermione Granger and the other kids as well…
In this book, maturity and adolescence are clearly stated since the students’ stay at Hogwarts have developed love and jealousy…however, the rising of Lord Voldemort in power and the loyalty of his followers hindered Harry and the Order of the Phoenix from having a peaceful year at the school…
Harry’s still a bit haunted by Sirius’s death and some members of the Order and other innocent witches and wizards have been reported lost and dying…Professor Severus Snape’s loyalty has been tested since Narcissa Malfoy asked him to do the Unbreakable Vow with her saying that he should protect her son, Draco Malfoy and whatever it is that the Dark Lord asked Draco to do and he can’t do it, Snape should…
Nobody knows what was Draco Malfoy’s task…all Harry knows is that he has been planning this since before the start of term and he doubted that Draco had been the member of the Death Eaters…
This book will really leave you hanging and anticipating for the upcoming 7th sequel…this book is shorter than the Order and it was more precise…in every chapter, you’ll realize how every witch and wizard in the magical world lie in danger…you’ll keep on asking what would happen next even though it’s already quite obvious….
I can say that the title Half-Blood Prince is quite far-fetched if you really think about the theme of the story but somehow, you’ll realize that the Half-Blood Prince is on either way related to how the story ended…
Let me pick up some lines from the book…this was from chapter 27: The Lightning-Struck Tower:
“We’ve got a problem, Snape,” said the lumpy Amycus, whose eyes and wand were fixed alike upon Dumbledore, “the boy (Malfoy) doesn’t seem able—“
But somebody else had spoken Snape’s name, quite softly.
“Severus…”
The sound frightened Harry beyond anything he had experienced all evening. For the first time, Dumbledore was pleading.
Snape said nothing, but walked forward and pushed Malfoy roughly out of the way. The three Death Eaters fell back without a word. Even the werewolf seemed cowed.
Snape gazed for a moment at Dumbledore, and there was revulsion and hatred etched in the harsh lines of his face.
“Severus…please…”
Snape raised his wand and pointed it directly at Dumbledore.
“Avada Kedavra!”
A jet of green light shot from the end of Snape’s wand and hit Dumbledore squarely in the chest.
Okay, okay…for those who haven’t read the book yet, forgive me for being such a spoiler but honestly, Dumbledore’s death is all over the internet and it is not true that he will come back to life on the 7th book…as Dumbledore mentioned, no spell can bring the dead back to life…so definitely, Dumbledore can never be alive again…
The question is, does Snape really wanted to kill Dumbledore?...is he really back on the dark side?...
Well here is my theory
Oh, this book left us many unanswered questions…mind you, there is no Dumbledore anymore who will do the explaining by the end of the last chapter…in addition, the half-blood prince also showed the life of Lord Voldemort and his parents even before he was born…what he was like before finding out that he was a wizard and what happened during and after his stay at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry…Dumbledore has been away from the castle most of the time and the Order of the Phoenix had been very busy guarding and protecting the whole Magical community…
I guess J.K. Rowling planned to kill Dumbledore because of the prophecy about Harry…this is what the prophecy said:
“The one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord approaches…Born to those who have thrice defied him, born as the seventh month dies…And the Dark Lord will mark him as equal, but he will have power the Dark Lord knows not…An either must die in the hand of the other for neither can live while the other survives.”
Harry has always been dependent to Dumbledore ever since he has been accepted at Hogwarts…every year, Dumbledore has to make sure that Harry would end the term alive…but after Harry found out about the prophecy, “…the Dark Lord will mark him as equal…” maybe Dumbledore thought that the time has come for Harry to face the Dark Lord alone…Not that because Dumbledore doesn’t want to face Voldemort anymore but maybe because he knows that Harry Potter will have the power to vanquish Lord Voldemort on his own…Sirius Black and Professor Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore, two of Harry’s most trusted people have died because they just did…they are relly meant to die so that Harry will learn to stand on his own and that Sirius and Dumbledore have confidence in him that he can indeed defeat the Dark Lord without their help…
And by the way, did I mention who the Half-blood Prince is?...hmmm…never mind…I don’t wanna be much of a spoiler anymore…just read the book, you’ll love it…
Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince is truly a frustrating book to read yet, it’ll really make you rack your brains for conclusions and theories…plus, after reading this, you will really doubt whether you wanna read the next sequel or not…but honestly, you will really can’t wait for the coming of the 7th book because of the fact that you’re anxious with what’s coming next for Harry now that the only one Voldemort has feared was already gone and that the Hogwarts staff are planning to close the school…
Well, just go on and read the Half-Blood Prince and don’t forget to read the Order of the Phoenix yet before that book…lol!...
Hope you enjoyed reading!...
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
l've seen the movie last saturday at NCCC mall with elai, dhawell, karen, cj, donna, madel, erickson, joseph and matet...then, last sunday, i watched it again with my cousins...
i can say it's too much to watch again considering the amount of money you spend but i can prove that Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire is worth watching over and over and over again!...
here are the probable reasons:
1. the Hungarian Horntail scene...that was so far the best scene in the movie for me...that is, the first task...i have never imagined that the horntail moment of harry would be that dangerous but as you watch it, it'll make you hold your breath for about more than 5 minutes, actually...the scene where harry flies above the castle, when he nearly fell, nearly burned his firebolt, damn!...
2. the arrival of beauxbatons academy and durmstrang institute...beauxbatons has been ecompassed with pretty french gurls with their headmistress madame maxime...their very feminine entrance to the great hall caught the attention of gurls and guys alike... now gurls even love imitating their swaying moves with all those butterflies...then comes the handsome durmstrang guys followed by viktor krum and their headmaster igor karkaroff...their macho entrance with that blazing staff and fire makes it even more enchanting...then the dramatic entrance of the bulgarian quidditch team seeker who also happens to be studying in he school made all the gurls scream and freeze in their seats...
3. lord voldemort rising..."bone of the father unwillingly given...flesh of the servant willingly sacrificed...and blood of the enemy forcibly taken...with this, the dark lord shall rise again..." these are the lines of wormtail when he did his ritual of making voldemort rise again...that scene is quite dramatic and the rising of the dark lord is so cool...the summon of the death eaters through the dark mark, it's so essential...plus, i like the scene when voldemort almost forgot about harry...lol!...that was quite funny...
4. cedric diggory's death...exactly as i imagined it on the book, cedric's death really pained the hearts of the viewers... the way i've cried in the book is nothing as the way i've cried in the movie...cedric digorry landing lifeless on the graveyard with his eyes open was so emotional...i could cry over and over again as i watch it...
5. the yule ball...who could forget it?...krum inviting hermione, cedric inviting cho and harry, being with parvati patil...the dancing part is so nice and who couldn't miss hagrid and maxime?...that sucks but was way funny!...then the heated row between ron and hermione clearly shows the adolescence stage of the characters...
finally, who couldn't miss the hottest guy in the movie?...STANISLAV IANEVSKI, the bulgarian actor who played viktor krum...every gurl who have seen the movie can't help saying that they admire the gym enthusiast bulgarian a lot...
whew!...i admit, i'm kinda frustrated with the movie because there are a lot of scenes that i expected to see which were not shown in the film...the second task is quite boring and the maze in the third task did not contain the creatures that i was dying to see such as the blast-ended skrewt and of course, the sphinx...only viktor krum was the catch but he looks so good we can't blame him...lol!...then there were fewer scenes with voldemort
well, that was kinda frustrating but if you'll think of the possibilities of making it worth a watch and if you're just a naturally harry potter fanatic, definitely you will love this fourth sequel the way you loved the other prequels!...
HARRY POTTER & THE GOBLET OF FIRE definitely owns!...
Saturday, November 05, 2005
er, not much of a blog, though...
i'm just who i am...i'm just who you wanted me to be...i live in a world of fairy tales where i try to pretend to be what i'm not but then i just end up snapping back to reality being who i really am...
i just can't figure out why tough girls like me get weak and hurt a lot by the people we love...
oh well, i guess it's just as fair as saying, "can i have the side of your donut?"
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Saturday, October 15, 2005
4. Forget but never regret
3. Pick up the pieces but never put them back
2. Feel the pain but never keep it
FINALLY...
1. Move on...
Trust me, it works...ÜÜÜ
Finally, I found someone that could make me feel at ease...Akasha the Queen of Pian...Nice abilities...Blink, Shadow Strike, Fan of Knives and Sonic Wave...Been using her all the time...Er, still a noobie though...hehehe...Then there was Chen the Holy Knight...He's a nice hero but i didn't quite like him because I didn't know how to use him...I'd rather stick with Akasha...I'm noobier with Chen...hahaha!...
We started playing random
So, after so many randoms, picks and all, I got stuck with the Bone Fletcher...He doesn't look good, though...He's skeletal...
Anyway, addiction...hmmm...Only DotA can convince me to go out of the house nowadays even if I do not have classes...Only DotA makes me forget my problems and even though I have appointments, when my friends say we'll play DotA, I'll cancel all for DotA...God I love this game...I'm always stuck in front of the computer surfing dotaportal.com for guides and item builds...Nice game...I love it totally!...I never thought I would spend my money for this kind of computer game...I admit, I'm getting addicted and I won't stop until i Meet my goal...
After meeting my goal, I still won't stop!...hahaha!...Find good DotA players in Boyztrek Jacinto...Cool!...
You've got to love Warcraft III-Defense of th Ancients!...ÜÜÜ
Sunday, September 11, 2005
I'm not sure how..
Or because of who..
The days are as long as ever..
And the nights are even more lonely..
This picture of your face haunts me..
Why won't you let me be?
I thought I was doing fine..
And then I looked at the stars..
Because of you my heart is filled with scars..
The pain has become to real..
This is not fair to have to feel..
I miss you..
But I know what I have to do..
So I wipe away another tear..
Knowing my biggest fear has come true.
Today is the day I have to get over you.
Follows everything you want me to do
Gives you all the things I can afford
But you only took these things for granted.
By the time that I was getting serious
I knew that you were just playing with me
I never thought that it would end up like this
You broke my heart.
But now I realized I’m more happy without you
It’s the time to go out of your dark shadow
And do better things without you
Starting now and forever … GOODBYE!
it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means
the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more
Remember: The time to love is short
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Just like a silent whisper, my heart longs for you
It may sound absurd and weird but that’s what I feel
You didn’t only hurt me once, you hurt me like twins
With a teardrop I cry thinking about my fears
Fear to be hurt, fear to be alone
Although I’m strong I become weak with you
Although I know how to fight, I’m willing to lose for you
I want to get over you, I want to forget you
I want to move on but how could I?
You are always around; you are always making me hold on to a wrong love
I wanna let go but each time I try to pull my hand away, you pull it back even harder
Your hold gets tighter every time I wanna pull it loose
I just wonder why you keep on doing this
You made a fool of me, you hurt me, you made me cry and yet you don’t want to let go of me
You stab my heart each time you’re with her but you don’t wanna see me with other guys
You’re being so unfair yet I tolerate your doings
I keep on thinking why am I doing all these sacrifices
Well maybe this is the only answer: I LOVE YOU
I love you although you hurt me
I love you although you made me cry
I love you although you make me feel stupid
I love because I just do and that won’t change even if I want to
My heart is closed with you inside
It’s hard to open it for others to fill
You locked it tight and you held the key
That’s why I feel like I’m lost with you all the time
I don’t know where this will bring us
I don’t know what will happen next
All I know is you’re in my heart
My thought runs with you
And all that I know is that until you won’t give me back the key to re-open my heart
I will always love you until my day ends
Friday, August 19, 2005
Okay, let’s skip those icky mushy stuff…why did I fall for you?...you wanna know?...well it’s because you made me do and I hated you for that!...I was in the midst of my happy life being your best friend then with just a snap of a finger, I fell for you wishing that you’ll catch me but you didn’t!...let’s say you did “partially”…nothing happened though…we’re still the best of friends…you still show me the same YOU that I’ve known before and I’m showing you the same ME you’ve seen before but now, my heart skips more than a beat whenever you do special things for me…but why do you do those things?...was it because you’re my best friend or you love me too?...you never told me you do but you always show me…hmmm…action speaks louder than words, I think…despite all those annoying things that you keep on doing, I don’t know, I’ve kept on loving you for that...hei, can you remember that promise that we made for each other?...well, if you’ve forgotten it, well, let me just remind you a bit…it’s not much of a great thing but it’s one reason why my life changed a lot!...we promised not to leave each other no matter what…we love each other but as the song goes, “we had the right love at the wrong time”…what wrong time?...for you it’s a wrong time but it’s the perfect time for me…okay girl, just keep quiet and keep on loving him he’ll notice soon…
Notice soon?...that soon came and went without a trace of difference in our relationship until one day I found out something dreadful!...you’ve got a new girl!...man, my heart was crushed!...all the things you did for me seem to flash before my eyes…all the things you told me, the promises…promises?...yeah!...your promise…you f****n forgot about our promise!...I never left you, but you did!...damn it was a disaster…but then you told me there’s nothing to worry about because there’s nothing between you and her…oohhhhhhhhh that was such a relief…at least you told me honestly about the two of you…at least you realized that each passing second is very crucial for me for I do not have any strength to approach you and ask you about it. We remained as we are and I kept on loving you wishing that somehow that thought will cross your mind.
Well guess what, moron!...that girl’s got friends who cannot quite keep a secret…know what I found out?...I found out the truth between you and her…the truth that broke my heart into a million pieces that I didn’t know if even God can mend it…I got stuck between doubt and trust…of course I trust you…I trust you enough to believe your stupid lies!...I doubted you 10% but I did trust you 90%...if you only knew how painful it is to have felt this way, maybe you will never dare touch my heart and crush it…but guess what?...I’ll stay as cool as I am and I will never let you know that I’ve been hurt…why should I?...you didn’t even bother to think of me when you hurt me…don’t worry, I’ll get over you soon…
I thought I was…damn!...I wasn’t planning to see you and talk to you but why the hell does destiny force us to meet?...and you know what?...everything bad I said about you seem to float away when I saw you smile at me and when I said hello, I realized I wasn’t really that over you…you still make my heart race, you still make my knees weak…you still make me feel stupid telling myself that just a smile and I am willing to forget everything…
GUESS THIS ISN’T GOODBYE, YET…
GUESS I STILL LOVE YOU FROM THE START…:’c
Sunday, May 01, 2005
So I know when people are
Creeping about
These people are
Freaking me out (these days)
It’s getting hectic everywhere that I go
They won’t leave me alone
There’s things they all wanna know
I'm paranoid of all the people I meet
Why are they talking to me?
And why can’t anyone see
I just wanna live
Don’t really care about the things that they say
Don’t really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live
Just wanna live [x7]
I rock a
Lawsuit when I’m going to court
A white suit when I’m gettin’ divorced
A black suit at the funeral home
And my birthday suit when I’m home alone
Talkin’ on the phone
Got an interview
With the rolling stone
They’re saying
“Now you’re rich and
Now you’re famous
And fake ass girls all know your names and
(Lifestyles) of the rich and famous
Your first hit are you ashamed?”
Of the life [x2]
Of the life we’re livin’
I just wanna live
Don’t really care about the things that they say
Don’t really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live
Stop your messin’ around boy
Better think of your future
Better make some good plans boy
Said everyone of my teachers
Lookout
You better play it safe
You never know what hard times will come your way
We say
Where we’re coming from
We’ve already seen
The wealth that this life can bring
Now we’re expected everywhere that we go
All the things that they say
Yeah we already know
I just wanna live
Don’t really care about the things that they say
Don’t really care about what happens to me
Just wanna live [x3]
I just wanna live
Just wanna live [x3]
I just wanna live
Just wanna live [x3]
Don’t really care about the things that they say
Just wanna live [x3]
Don’t really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone
Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah
I walk alone
I walk a...
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone!
Friday, February 11, 2005
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
And taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
A little bird who'll sing about the magic that was you and me
Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
Others only dream of the love that I love
See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive
Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
Others only dream of the love that I love
And with this silence brings a moral story more importantly evolving is the glory of a boy
you and I both loved what you and
I spoke ofand others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of
and it's okay if you have go away
just remember the telephone works both ways
and if I never ever hear it ring
if nothing else I'll think the bells inside have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause I'll remember everything you sang
you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of words.
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Do the words I speak before you make you feel
That the love I have for you will see no ending?
Well, if you look into my eyes then you should know
that you have nothing here to doubt nothing to fear
And you can lay your questions down' cause if you'll hold me
We can fade into the night and you'll know
The world could die
And everything may lie
Still you shan't cry'
Cause time may pass
But longer than it'll last
I'll be by your side
Take my hand
And gently close your eyes
So you could understand
That there's no greater love tonight
Than what I've for you
Well, if you feel the same way for me
Then let go
We can journey to a garden no one knows
Life is short, my darling
Tell me that you love me
So we can fade into the night
And you'll know
The world could die
And everything may lie
Still you shan't cry'
Cause time may pass
But longer than it'll last
I'll be by your side
Forever by your side...
I want you to know
The world could lie
And everything may die
Still you shan't cry'
Cause time may pass
And everything will last
I'll be by your side
Forever by your side
So you won't cry...
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
keep up the good work!...this only shows that davao city has something to be proud of!...ÜÜÜ